Life's journeys.

Saturday afternoon I would up in the ER for several hours in severe pain. I thought I had already had the miscarriage but turns out all my pain was because I was having it then. They checked by blood levels, gave me pain meds and sent me home to just make it through the pain for the next 24+ hours. This pain I speak of is like being in labor and having a contraction every 2 minutes or so with ibuprofen being the only medicine you have to take. NO FUN!

Sunday I laid in the recliner with lots of pain meds in my system and the heating pad on my belly to help the pain. William wrangled Maddie unless she wanted in the chair with me, which was often. She would play with the Christmas tree which was so sweet to me.

Sunday afternoon I started feeling a tiny bit better so I sat on the toy room with Maddie to play.

We had a sweet friend bring us dinner. Maddie played under the table during dinner. The way I felt as long as she wasn't screaming or hanging from the ceiling it was ok!

After Daddy gave her a bath and got her in Christmas Jammie's we played in the toy room until bedtime. Maddie was enjoying our time, she was popping wheelies with her doll stroller.

William has been ever so understanding in my grieving for special things that I have requested.

Here is a special angel ornament for our Christmas tree. We have many special ornaments for things that have happened each year and this one is important too.

He picked out this "Forget me not" Williow Tree Figure to go with the others that I have. It sits next to the one he gave me when Maddie was born.

He also let me pick out a special angel wing charm for my Pandora bracelet. This bracelet has become so special to me over the past few years to tell my life story. I can look at it and recall what a charm is for and be reminded of things that have molded my life.

Monday morning we had to go back to the Dr after my ER visit. My DR helped us be able to get some closure on all that has happened. I was very blessed by the care he and his nurse gave me. The nurse prayed over me before the Dr came in to talk with us.

Tuesday William went back to work. I was scared but Maddie and I made it through the day with lots of tears and prayers. We ran a few errands to keep us busy and help pass the time.

She insisted on wearing her owl hat. I thought it was so cute!

Having her muffins for breakfast.

For lunch I was having the leftover chili that my friend brought on Sunday night. I couldn't expect anything less than Maddie wanting my chili rather than her own lunch so I shared!:)

This little girl loves her Christmas tree!

"CHEESE"

Playing in her chair. One of her favs in her room.

Wednesday morning we took it easy at home since I was still hurting.

Poor dog, having to wear sunglasses...haha!

I put the Legos together and she takes them apart. :)

Having dinner in her coat and hat.

Thursday Maddie has school so while she was at school I sat at a local coffee shop reading a book and then having lunch with a sweet friend who had walked down this road that I am currently on.

Sitting in her chair reading! So big!

Maddie makes me laugh. She may only be 19 months but she has no trouble bossing our dog around and telling him to "hush" when he is barking.

I found these princesses under the tree!

I guess she likes wheat thins because I found her in her toy room with this box.